In my college library

so basically I am just wowed that i was even able to write two days in a row, that is crazy!
I just did some of my work for my group dynamics class later today,
I cannot bring myself to do it the night before it is just insane.
I know that once I have an actual computer and a desk to sit at when I move that will all change
and if it doesn't on it's own I will make it happen because I cannot deal with this anymore. 
I get up at 7 to get here at 7:30 for work that starts at 9:00 and a class that starts at 3:00
that's crazy.
It's now less then a week until we close on our house and I am so anxious to move in already
I cannot wait to stop dealing with all the bullshit that is going on.
Also I just cannot stand living in the mess that I have right now it is just insane.
When we finally move we will be organized and neat
and all will be right in the world haha
I am slacking in my online class and it is so hard because all I have is the computer here at the school
and I am always running around doing other things it is so hard to get anything done for that class
the 27th we move in
the 28th I buy a desk, computer, printer and chair
that will be amazing!
I cannot wait.
Obviously haha
Oh and Tim bought me a new Essie which i did my nails last night and this color is the bomb for the fall time
it's called angora cardi it's like a maroon brown of sorts so pretty
Yeah so not a picture of my nails but it looks the same on me, love!! 

Moving!

So today marks one week until we close on the house!
You have NO IDEA how
Thrilled
I am!
We have no hot water, no food, no space and not positivity/happiness
at my house currently.
To take a shower I have to drive almost a half an hour to my moms.
Really. -______________-
Stale face worthy.
Also I have been bickering with my dad like every single day because he is constantly brooding over money issues and how he never sleeps and is sooo tired.
I can't take it anymore,
DO something about it!!
Also once we move,
Tim and I will be sharing an apartment, a room, a bed.
I just can't wait to take that next step
I am just hoping it is all we have been hoping for all this time.
I just want to pick myself up out of the negativity that house brings me and put me in a happy, calm place.
I swear this week and next week can NOT go by fast enough! 

Psychology Classes

So I am a psych major and I mean I have been deeply interested in it since the first time I stepped foot in a psych course in High school.
It was child psychology I think.
We talked about needs, wants, the ID Ego and Superego that sort of thing.
I took a more advanced class just regular psychology in junior year and I aced everything.
That was my field i just knew it.
Last semester I took my first college level psych class
and it was basic but it was awesome
I had a well experienced and funny professor the work was easy and I enjoyed it
SO
this semester I signed up for 3 psych classes:

• Group dynamics
• adolescent psych 
• psychology of learning

I cannot tell you enough how glad I am that I am taking them all.

Adolescent psych as you may have assumed is really helping me work through some unresolved issues from my childhood and whatnot and allowing me to understand why things went certain ways and yet continue to go those ways still and also my younger brother who is a junior in high school.

Group dynamics although centered around group work in schools and with your peers is also helping me survive in my family group and setting in my household which is also a constant struggle day in and out. It really helps you understand why people feel so awkward and what would help groups work and communicate more effectively together my family included.

Psych of learning which i had today really aid you in understanding where your behaviors come from and why you still may continue ones you don't want to keep and find it hard to adopt ones you would like to. Also it helps you understand others and how they can get so wrapped up in things and also that change is learning and vice versa and without your world constantly changing however that may suck, it is needed to move on in life, and I really respect that.

I have really come to the point in my life when I am understanding why people are the way they are and why I have been so hurt and also effected by those actions so much and how to deal with it in a positive way and I really urge you if anyone even reads this to take a look around you and challenge yourself to really understand others and why they act the way they do. All of our actions and decisions are a product of what we were taught and how we learned, I just so happened to be fortunate enough to learn from people's mistakes just by watching and not having to make those mistakes of my own. Although you may have read in my previous entries that I have made my share of mistakes and I am sure I won't stop anytime soon because that is sadly a part of life and growing up, but I am making a conscious decision to understand, relate and learn to change behaviors.

Study Abroad, rings(again) and Haircut!

Oh My God!
I may be going to LONDON!
I went to Greece and Rome this past summer I don't know if i mentioned it,
I probably have like a million times haha
anyways
This trip is Amazing!
It is with the dean of my college so I think it will be more up my alley, It's for my major and it's to go see
Stonehenge, Jane Austen's house and take a few classes at Oxford University!
OMG.
I really would love to go on this trip
I have to go see global studies later on next week and see what is going on price wise and if it is a consideration!
OMG, i'm excited can you tell?

It is just so amazing!
And If i do get the chance to do this i would be psyched out!
Anyways the other thing is that the rings that I was posting over and over and being so obsessed about...
HUGE
let down.
I actually tried some on and they seemed so flimsy and just ehhh
which i was so upset about.
Tim and I went to Jared and he went back with his mom and picked something out!!!
I can't believe that he actually knows the ring I will be wearing for the rest of my life.
I do know basically what it looks like and it is sooo much more simple then I originally wanted
but after seeing the solitaire ring in person and trying it on I do see how beautiful it is and how it is more about the actual diamond then anything else and I love that look and idea!
so basically it is going to be a round diamond and I actually know the carat weight is around .85 and that it is going to a plain white gold band with some type of diamond accents on the side profile of the ring. This is the one that I showed him that I really liked and he brought to Jared but they showed him something else and he said it is nothing I have seen before so I am excited that he picked it out!


So yeah I know that it is so plain as compared to the other ones that I was posting for so long but there is just such a beauty to this simplicity that I really do love it and the women totally had me as well by saying that you can easily dress it up with the wedding band that you choose which is so true!
And lastly I am thinking about getting my hair trimmed not too much cut off it is just
SO DEAD
and the sun and pool really took a toll. Well yeah talk to you soon!!

Sophmore status, engagement and online classes

So tomorrow starts my second year of college,
I seriously still cannot believe that!
I am starting my alcoholism certificate program this upcoming weekend
and all my classes are going towards my psychology degree
I am excited but nervous which really does surprise me
I am also off on mondays and fridays which is awesome so totally excited for that
OMG also this monday that just passed,
Tim went to the mall and of course i wasn't supossed to know but i did
and he went to pick out
THE RING.
seriously I cannot believe this is actually happening with us!!
I mean i can believe it i've been with the guy for almost 7 years
but still it's just so awesome.
and i also am taking an online research class sadly
ugh why do i do these things to myself haha