Monday, November 12, 2012

My college essay

So i wanted to have an essay for college admissions that would literally jump off the page at the reader
I wanted to be unconventional and inspiring
soooo
i decided to do something different
my guidance counselor and i had the same idea
which was:
write about my hair dying!
which i thought was ingenious because that is something about me that sticks out to most people
besides my high grades
which those two also seem to clash in a way so i just figured...
Perfect!
soo here is the outline i wrote up for her and i to go over tomorrow when i go back
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Amanda Butera
College Essay Ideas/Outline
·         The significance behind my hair dying will be the main focus
·         All the colors I have done and their meanings as a whole(http://crystal-cure.com/color-meanings.html) and (http://www.empower-yourself-with-color-psychology.com/meaning-of-colors.html)
o   Red
§  Stands for passion and courage
o   Orange
§  Endurance and optimism
o   Green
§  Life and well being
o   Pink
§  Love and beauty
o   Blue
§  Youth and spirituality
o   Gold/Yellow
§  Joy and prosperity
o   Purple
§  Royalty and mystery
o   Black
§  Earth and stability
o   Half and half: Top one color and underneath another color
·         To me having my hair different colors isn’t about attention or the shock factor, different hair colors made me feel differently and bring out different parts of my personality
o   When I have black hair I feel more put together and more mature
o   When I have red hair(favorite) I find myself to be more outgoing and courageous
o   My pink and purple hair makes me feel more feminine and beautiful
o   And my blue hair(favorite) makes me feel more deep and interesting
·         When I have other wacky things with my hair such as streaks/highlights I feel it allows me to show some of my eccentric personality, like a glimpse of the more daring part of myself, but still allows me to look put together and not just totally out there
·         I started dying my hair in 6th grade when I realized I didn’t want to be like everyone else and I didn’t want to fit in one particular mold or stereotype
·         Dying my hair is a way to express the different parts of my personality, my feminine side, my courageous side, my mysterious side and my maturity level all at once
·         Use this quote to explain that we live in a world of color which makes things more interesting
o   “I found I could say things with color and shapes that I couldn't say any other way - things I had no words for.” Georgia O'Keeffe(American artist in early 1900’s)
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so yeah that's it and i'll come back to this topic again soon
after her and i go over the concept! 
:D

Thursday, November 8, 2012

November

First off I am super shocked that November has come so fast!
And it's already the 8th...
Ten more days until Tim's birthday and 17 more until mine:)
I mean our birthdays always sucks, but whatever.
Ummm what else?
We are soo behind in school because of all the time off
and i have a stats quiz tomorrow
oh and it's the last day of the quarter
sooo
i hope i do good!
well i just wanted to check in.
I'm tired and need to pick out clothes for tomorrow
night
:)

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Long Time No Write

Hey!
So sorry i've been gone for so long.
With the hurricane and all I had no power for a week at my house.
It has been so dark and cold :/
I have also been out of school since last Monday, i'm going back tomorrow
OH
Happy Election Day!!
I think it can be either one,
I don't like Romney, but i know enough people who do to think he may win
I just want to know already.
I am dying my hair today!!
I'm doing a deep auburn red right over what I have now, I am sooo ready for a change!
Um what else?
Oh I finished my english book (Tess of the Durbervilles)
She kills her rapist turn priest to get back with her runaway husband and gets caught and killed at the end
yup,
uplifting books for the win ;]
anyways
I am making a carrot cake, as an excuse to use the oven and warm up the house
whoop
so I need to go check on that then hair time!
:D

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Candles

OMG
a candle warmer was the best invention ever.
Seriously!
I have melted my creamy pumpkin candle all night last night and now all night tonight...
and it's still the same centimeter left as when i was actually burning it last week!
And it's just so great because i don't need to worry about running out
since you don't actually burn it
AND
since you don't burn it the smell is super amazing because you don't smell any of the actual burn
whoop
<3 my candle warmer
:D

Ugh. SAT

So sucky!
oh my god,
the june one my combined score was a 1600
500 math
520 reading
580 writing

i just got my october one
all together a 1580
530 reading
510 math
540 reading

so i went up in my two sucky ones and went down in my good one!
>.<

Monday, October 22, 2012

Sex.

Yeah I know, weird subject today...
BUT
I have a few comments on this:
1. WAIT
  • you will not regret it 
  • I know soooo many people that wish they had 
  • you will probably end up giving it to someone you won't stay with 
  • if you really love someone you won't complicate it at such a young age with this 
2. READINESS
  • don't be pushed into it 
  • don't allow your hormones to take over and you end up doing something you regret 
  • emotions, emotions, Emotions: that is what really hurts, so i've heard
3. THE GUY
  • Is he actually going to care if you break up after?
  • Is he more experienced, is it safe? 
  • Does he LOVE you? and not just plain old love, is he IN LOVE with you?
Just a few things to consider...
I mean i don't really have that great advice since i've never, but i've heard from others.
So yeah...
sex is personal and private and intimate, so don't fuck it up
:D

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Relationship/Advice

I have been seeing around a lot lately that my friends are breaking up with their boyfriends...
or getting dumped.
And they are just heartbroken and crying and the whole nine,
Which i Totally understand. 
When Tim and I broke up in the beginning of 2010, right after the new year...
I was just devastated.
I didn't know what to do with myself.
I couldn't stop crying.
I couldn't eat.
Ugh it was terrible.
And now that I see this happening to others I just see myself in them and what happened to me.
And to be honest it's really sad.
I don't even have great advice for anyone.
It sucks is all I can really say.
It feels as if someone has just taken everything away from you that you have ever known
and there's no way to possibly fill that void.
It feels like that for a while, until you can come to terms with reality and accept that the way things are have changed.
Yet as soon as i was able to get to that point, which took about two months, Tim wanted me back
and like a fool I ran back.
I mean it was good be got back together,
we love each other,
but it seemed as if i was so desperate to get him back, because i was.
And all I can say is that whole situation allowed me to honestly grow as a woman,
it let me become more independent and no longer hide behind him
and taught me that not everything is going to turn out the way you may think.
So i guess my "advice" pretty much is to be independent.
Heartbreak hurts, but you can't let it dictate your life and you cannot allow your emotions to get in the way of your everyday life.