Christmas Season

Hey,
I don't even know what direction i want to go in with this blog...
but i know it's a negative one.
It's about this season and my family.
I am so unhappy.
On a scale from 1-10 of how happy you are i am probably a three.
I don't even know why, it's just everything all meshed together.
The people that live here, the fact that everyone is so pissy all the time.
I mean really every day everyone is so pissed off, including me,
and i don't know why.
and then when everyone is happy it pisses me off even more because everyone is acting sooo fake.
I just really can't stand falseness
and i just really can't stand everyone that i live with.
UGH.
anyways,
I...hate the holidays.
It's supposed to be a time of happiness and togetherness and even when it is in my house,
to me it's just everyone pretending to like each other.
If you're not happy don't pretend,
and i think that's why i always seem like the odd one out and i always seem like i'm in a pissed mood.
I'm not going to pretend i'm happy when i'm not and i'm not actually going to be happy when everyone else is just pretending....
if that makes any sense?
well anyways.
that's really it for my sucky holiday rant.
:/