So as you guys know I am with my boyfriend for almost 5 years now....
and i've recently (last two years or so) been having some doubts.
I don't know...I just feel unhappy.
our lives are uneventful.
He can't seem to hold a conversation without picking up one of his "toys"
(cell phone, hand held game ect.)
It's REALLY getting on my every last nerve.
The problem is I only seem to bring up this issue and whatever else that has been irking me when we get into a fight so i guess it seems as if i am just rattling off things that piss me off,
meanwhile i am legitimately bringing up something that annoys the shit out of me.
In a way i think i only want our relationship to work because of all the history we have...
and that is not worth anything.
I just feel neglected and forgotten about.
And he blames it on our living arrangements,
which i do agree is unconventional since we've been living together since i was in 8th grade.
But still....
He doesn't text me cute things anymore,
he doesn't call me when i'm at my moms house,
he doesn't write long messages in cards anymore...
I just feel like we have really lost something
and that something is what made our relationship worth wild.
It really saddens me,
i'm always mad at him
and he is always just so indifferent which makes me even more mad at him.
I just want to have a meaningful conversation,
a romantic evening....
something, you know?
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