Lucky

okay so the first thing I have to address is how in this world did i get so lucky?
how did i get so lucky?
I just don't understand what I did to have this happen to me
but above all I am so greatful and i am so humbled
I have made mistakes in the past few years in my relationship.
I was texting another person inappropriatly when I shouldn't have
I felt desperate, lonely, insecure and unloved.
Although I was with my boyfriend for over 5 years we just seemed to be in a rut and not really making things work
I took advantage of a bad situation and the first thing that came around that seemed to be what I needed I was a part of it.
But then I realized that my boyfriend was trying and you know that age old saying?
Just because something doesn't love you the way you want them to it doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have
and that was the truth he was trying and i was just being a complete asshole
so I told this person goodbye and do not talk to me again
long story short my boyfriend found out about this nearly a year later and he was mad,
had all right to be
and when i was saying that we should probably take a break the whole nine
he was saying how it is in the past
it was a dumb mistake out of desperation and that the thought of living without me now is too much and worse then what had happened
I am in no way saying that what i did was jutified because it is not.
I am only saying thie entire thing to show how amazing and just all around perfect my boyfriend is.
Any time I have ever said I love you to anyone but him was a complete lie.
He is the only man that I have ever loved and will ever love the way that I do.
He is amazing and I could never go through life without him.
Seven years together next April and even with all of our issues and flaws I wouldn't have it any other way because we have gotten through so much and proved to ourselves and everyone else that sometimes accepting the bad with the good is worth it.
When he started dating this girl he barely knew after us being together for 2 years and just breaking it off randomly one day took a long time to get over but this past year as been so great and we are moving foward like I never knew that we would just yet.
Now, on a happier and better note of our realtionship!
He asked my dad for permission to ask me to marry him!
And after finding out all of that bull shit he proceeded to tell his mother and father too
I really just cannot believe that it is coming up so close and he is really thinking seriously about it!
I am really so excited and I think my mom and his mom are too
I am thinkng that he is going to propose on our orlando trip in January but I'm not too sure that would be cool
I just really love romance and I know that he is not good at that but he really tries and that is enough for me. That is all I ever wanted and what our realtionship was lacking
but we are totally back on track and have been for a while
I love him with all of my heart.