college orientation

so i went a few days ago
and you know what?
I liked it
i loved how corny they all were
and how people were really into it
it was cute.
some of the new students seemed a little...
off to me i guess you could say
but the people there were very nice
and welcoming
next wednesday i start
so i hope all goes well
i did have to order a new book
because my professor sent out an email
which i just checked yesterday
saying there was
a mix up..
ugh oh well

Home

I don't know...
why i feel this way.
I just hate being everywhere.
I hate everything
and it's horrible.
It's like yes i have this realization...
this epiphany if you will
that i know i cannot go on like this.
But I just can't help it.
My boyfriend is away for the weekend.
and i'm waiting for him to contact me..
but he just wont
is that effecting the way that i feel?
Maybe.
Or maybe it's something else that has always been there
but now in this awkward waiting time it's being revealed.
Is that possible?
It's like i want to run away from every corner of my life.
But where does that leave me?
While everyone i know if off starting the new chapter of their lives
i am sulking and
NO
i don't want to be this way...
and no i don't think it's depression
and i don't think it's jealousy.
I honestly don't know what it is
and i hate it.

college bound

so NO
i'm not going away to school
which makes me a little sad to be completely honest
BUT
i mean i don't really need that experience..
although it would be cool
all my friends are though.
going away to school
they all started leaving already
and by the end of the weekend they will all be gone
which is actually sad to think of
ehh...
i guess i'll miss them haha
i am however extremely happy to be out of high school
and looking forward to not having to return next month
although i will go to my little brothers orientation
it will be nice to see the faculty
and it will be a little different this time since i would be
"under their rule" so to speak
:D

Road Test

So...
I failed.
I know..Miss never fails anything, straight a student
ugh such a loser
i couldn't believe it..
but what can i say?
I guess i'll just have to try again.
:/

car and phone!

So today was really good for me!
I registered my car and got it on the road
:D so exciting!
I also got a visor organizer and put in the angel my mom gave me
My car is great!
It rides very smooth
and the idle really isn't bad at all once you start driving it
maybe it was sitting for a super long time and that's what made it so loud
but the steering wheel cover is great
my radio works well
and the cigarette charger thing works well too
:P
OH and i got a new phone today
i just upgraded my current phone to what the newer model was
and it's pretty nice i actually really like it
too bad they don't make it in white though:/
um but its the sony xperia the newest one
 
the only thing that super sucked
was that they couldn't transfer over my contacts so i had to type each one in by hand
but eh that's okay
umm i loved today it was great
my dog really enjoyed my car as well haha
she was so happy to be finally getting a ride:)

Shopping

So i went clothes shopping today with my boyfriend
we were at the mall
and it was just super weird because
i always thought that
only cool kids shopped at the mall
but today i walked in and just enjoyed myself
it was an odd feeling
but i'm happy i did it
:P
i got two circle skirts from h&m
which i have been searching for every time i go thrifting
which is alot by the way
so i saw them there and just decided to pick them up
finally

and i also got two pairs of pants and a top
which is so weird because i Never seem to find bottoms:)

Friends

So it has been so long since i have hung out with my friends
and so today i went over one of their houses and they were so fun
we got pizza and oreos
and watched a movie
and just laughed
and to me it was so great because i just feel like i fit there
somewhere
for once :)
and also it was nice to just hang out and relax with them
before they both go off to college upstate
and then i don't see them until break
:/
but anyways
it's nice to feel like you have somewhere to go
where people actually like you
and you make them smile
just as much as they make you smile