Spring Break

So this is it.
Today is the end.
UGH.
It went by so fast...
and what did i do all week?
Freak out over college, clean, homework...
nothing that great or exciting.
Well today is Easter and i am going to try and enjoy my last day of vacation,
even though I still have
Math extra credit
half of a book to read by Friday
a painting to work on
and cooking to do.
UGH.
Tomorrow is going to be good i hope.
Finally supposed to hear something from Stony Brook
and then maybe i can finally rest my mind.
I hope:)
Happy Easter everyone!

Stony Brook

I am still absolutely obessing over the decision.
I still haven't heard anything,
they say latest April 1st and today is March 28th...
I mean only a few more days right?
BUT
what if they never tell me anything??
I mean i am pretty sure just like everyone else that ill get in...
but why is it taking so long??
and why is it that i didn't get a rejection letter yet if i did get rejected?
ugh this is all too stressful for me!
and i have this workshop on april 5th at stony brook 'and i only signed up because i figured i could get another look at the campus i'd be going to
but for this thing i have to read a huge book i haven't started because i don't really want to go if i don't get in...
you know what i mean?
AND
april 7th is the admitted student thing for st. joseph's which i never even wanted to go there but i applied for the presidential scholarship
and ended up getting it.
UGHHHHH
too much stress over spring break.
this needs to stop.
now.

ugh hey there

it's been sooo long like over a month and a half i think.
i'm sorry I've been away for a while.
my laptop is messed up again and i'm just super stressed out!
I got  a presidential scholarship from St. Joseph's college and my counselors are pressuring me to take it
but i'm holding out for stony brook which is where i really want to go
but they won't let me know until the latest april first and i just feel like i've been waiting forever
and no word.
its killing me.
i just want to hear something! 
i don't feel like myself
i just feel so aggravated and irritated and on edge
once i find out i can make my decision.
but i haven't heard anything.
and i don't see why i wouldn't  get in but it's taking forever
and what if i don't.
i haven't really thought about that.
then i'll be going to St. Joseph's which i never even had on my list.
but the scholarship is awesome.
ugh i can't handle this stress.
everyone who applied regular admissions has found out already,
but not me of course.
the school i really want to go to hasn't said anything.
it's terrifying to me,
i really do want to go there.
i'm even looking forward to there 5 week boot camp over the summer.
just as long as i get in!
i'll definitely will keep you posted!
Bye
:/