french macaroons

OMG!!
i've had these twice now, i love them!
i want to make them sooo bad
they are just so cute!
i don't even know why i like them so much
but i do know its the look of them that makes me love them!
they are so colorful and just so great!



just look how cute!!
I WILL make them!
<3 :D

summertime

SO
thursday was my last day of school!
My last day of high school,
my last day of senior year:)
damn it really did go by so fast!
I still have to go in monday to give a teacher something and work on my painting final
but it's over!
but today was my first day out in the summer and it was really fun
we walked all around sayville
which is a town near me and has so many cute(but super expensive) stores!
anyways.
i just wanted to say that!
bye :D

Mac Lipsticks

I know i've been gone for like....ever
and this is a weird topic to come back to.
BUT
anyone who knows me, Knows that i am obsessed with lip products
and i have been wanting to buy a mac lipstick for about a year.
AND i don't know which one!!
SO i've narrowed it down to three.
1. Plumful
it is a really pretty plum(obviously) pink berry color


2. Shy girl
which i've been looking at for like ever. I love nudes and this one seems great but i don't want to spend $15 on a lipstick that doesn't work for my skin tone and then i'm out of luck
it's like a peachy tan pink


3. Viva Glam V
now this one is a bit shimmery so i don't really know...um i do love it and it seems neutral enbough to wear all the time but what if its too shimmery or too sheer and it isn't really like a lipstick? ugh


i mean i love all three and i think any would be great ohhhh and there's one more i was looking at for like ever and thats a more pinky toned one

4. Cosmo
this is so similar to one i have and love and am almost out of from avon, but do i really want to play it safe by getting a color i know i'll love?


ugh sooooo which one should i buy now that i finally have the money??

UPDATE

Hey,
i know i've been gone for like,
ever.
I don't have a computer right now.
and thank god this year none of my teachers require anything to be typed.
Now that would SUCK.
My laptop is broken and i just haven't gotten it fixed.
And i need a keyboard to type not a touch one on a screen.
SOO
anyways
I got wait-listed for stony brook and declined my spot
I have accepted the fact that i am going to st. Joseph's
ummm
i am running my limo for prom.
And it is super stressful.
people keep on dropping out at the last moment and it's super expensive.
I hate everyone right now.
UGH.
My grandparents are just....
the way they are and my mom is too.
well that's about it really.
OHHHHH
and tomorrow is me and Tim's 5 year anniversary<3
finally!
okayyy bye!
:)

Spring Break

So this is it.
Today is the end.
UGH.
It went by so fast...
and what did i do all week?
Freak out over college, clean, homework...
nothing that great or exciting.
Well today is Easter and i am going to try and enjoy my last day of vacation,
even though I still have
Math extra credit
half of a book to read by Friday
a painting to work on
and cooking to do.
UGH.
Tomorrow is going to be good i hope.
Finally supposed to hear something from Stony Brook
and then maybe i can finally rest my mind.
I hope:)
Happy Easter everyone!

Stony Brook

I am still absolutely obessing over the decision.
I still haven't heard anything,
they say latest April 1st and today is March 28th...
I mean only a few more days right?
BUT
what if they never tell me anything??
I mean i am pretty sure just like everyone else that ill get in...
but why is it taking so long??
and why is it that i didn't get a rejection letter yet if i did get rejected?
ugh this is all too stressful for me!
and i have this workshop on april 5th at stony brook 'and i only signed up because i figured i could get another look at the campus i'd be going to
but for this thing i have to read a huge book i haven't started because i don't really want to go if i don't get in...
you know what i mean?
AND
april 7th is the admitted student thing for st. joseph's which i never even wanted to go there but i applied for the presidential scholarship
and ended up getting it.
UGHHHHH
too much stress over spring break.
this needs to stop.
now.

ugh hey there

it's been sooo long like over a month and a half i think.
i'm sorry I've been away for a while.
my laptop is messed up again and i'm just super stressed out!
I got  a presidential scholarship from St. Joseph's college and my counselors are pressuring me to take it
but i'm holding out for stony brook which is where i really want to go
but they won't let me know until the latest april first and i just feel like i've been waiting forever
and no word.
its killing me.
i just want to hear something! 
i don't feel like myself
i just feel so aggravated and irritated and on edge
once i find out i can make my decision.
but i haven't heard anything.
and i don't see why i wouldn't  get in but it's taking forever
and what if i don't.
i haven't really thought about that.
then i'll be going to St. Joseph's which i never even had on my list.
but the scholarship is awesome.
ugh i can't handle this stress.
everyone who applied regular admissions has found out already,
but not me of course.
the school i really want to go to hasn't said anything.
it's terrifying to me,
i really do want to go there.
i'm even looking forward to there 5 week boot camp over the summer.
just as long as i get in!
i'll definitely will keep you posted!
Bye
:/