It's the Holiday Season!!

So I decided to go black friday shopping again this year and i got some great deals,
blue rays for $6 which are normally $30
the soda stream for $80 which is normally $100 and a $25 gift card to target
which means I basically got my moms gift for free
whoop!
and then I went shopping again today and got some stuff for my brothers
and on monday it's cyber monday!!
I have been listening to christmas music in my car everyday so far
and i am really feeling in the holiday mood!
I went to bath and body works and got candles for the season and everything:)
I am very into it which is pretty surprising for me..
maybe it's because i actually have money to buy presents this year:)
well that's about it for now i'll check in again soon!
:D

Mac Lipsticks

So I was wanting a Mac lipstick for so so long nut I just didn't want to spend the money
so during this past summer one of my now former high school teachers took me to the mac store in Manhattan and ended up buying me one!
I got a luster nude type color in the shade hug me
 and this is what it looks like

I have worn it past half way now and I decided with my first paycheck that I was going to buy another one so I decided on a nude color yet again and this time it was a cream sheen in Shy Girl
it's more of a peach and if I don't wear foundation the redness in my face really clashes, I just got it a few days ago in the mail so i'm still not sure about how much I like it we will see but anyways here it is..

 I really do love the color and I feel it really does look nice i just really have to exfoliate and maybe put a gloss over it.
So I am getting paid again soon and I told myself I would buy myself one with each paycheck
expect maybe my December one because that is Christmas time
(yes I only get paid once a month...perks of work study. Damn you federal government.)
So there are two types or whatever you want to call it..categories maybe that I want to get
one is a red and one is a plum since I already have a nude/natural color and a peach
I'm thinking of getting rebel which is described as a creamy plum but it looks somewhat bright on google so i don't know...



and then about the red I really don't know which one at all I don't want something too deep or too bright and I also don't want something too orange or just not right for me.
Since I don't ever psychically go to the mac store because I feel completely out of place I just order off their website...
hopefully I can sort that out haha
but i think that rebel is next.
I also want to get:
Cosmo which is so similar in color to my all time favorite blushing bride from Avon

French Macaroons

Or macarons and people say,
they are so beautiful and I baked them today
and they came out Perfect!!
I really could not even believe that I got feet the first time
ugh so beautiful
so here are a few pictures of them!








I am so so happy with them and they taste awesome!
I'm pretty sure it made about 30 cookies or so and i only have about 15 or so left haha
they are so small you know..
oh and here is the recipe for anyone who wants to try them out just follow this exact video and tips
they work awesome!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJ636Y8N6E8

Stye on the eye

I had one about two weeks ago and i was freaking out
no surprise there
and i did all the treatments and whatnot
and it wen away
so i stopped
but now it's back
in the same position and place and eye
and it's not even bad at all
but i am already freaking out
and i know i shouldnt be be i am
ugh i hate that i get this way
i need to just come down already
and just go with it.
It is just so annoying that these things happen to me
and i can't ever catch a break

Shoes, Makeup, Birthdays!!

So it has been like a million years i know...
I am just so excited to tell you that i was on instagram and i saw this post for someone selling
T.U.K. CREEPERS FOR $45!!
So i messaged her and was like hey i'm interested blah blah blah
and they just so happened to be my size and color i wanted
and the best part was she just so happened to live one town over from me
of all the places in the world!
I swear it was meant to be <3
so anyways I got them a week ago today
and i have worn them everyday since i got them,
ugh i love them!
These are the ones i got the black suede low soles

They are just so damn awesome and comfy too
at first they bothered my arch a little because they are kind of flat but after a week
they are awesome and i wear them all day at college and leave them on for hours when i get home.
I am so happy they are good because i wanted so badly to like them
and i do!!
NEXT THING....
I went to the mall to go shopping for something for my birthday..
and as you can probably tell from the title of this post,
that Something was
THE DOC MARTENS
I have been wanting these boots for so many years and i asked for them every year for my birthday or for christmas but never got them mostly because they are expensive and i could never try them on anywhere
BUT i saw on Macy' online that they had them so i went to my mall to see..and of course they don't.
I mean really why would they?
so as i was leaving the mall totally defeated I see them in Journey's and flip a lid!
they were also $20 cheaper there at $119
so i went back with my grandma this past friday and picked them up!
I got the 1460 8 hole smooth leather black ones :)










UGH I love them!!
Too bad I have to wait a little over a month for my birthday to come:(
and then i have to break them in..
I was thinking about bringing them to a leather shop and getting them stretched for me
but i don't know
i also want to "earn them" so to speak
any suggestions?

AND LASTLY
one other thing i am super stoked for as a birthday present is
THE NAKED PALETTE 2
i have the first one
i actually bought it for prom and i love it so much
and my mom said she would get me the second one for my birthday
i think it is definitely worth the $50 because i use them all the time
basically all of my quads and singles have been pushed aside because i have everything i need right in one place and it's good to travel with so i love it!
 

OH and i also love the double ended brush because i don't have any brushes and the one from the naked palette was pretty good.
SO
i am super excited for my birthday this year...haha for once.
The big 18!
thank god then i can finally have my senior license and drive where ever whenever and not have to worry about getting in trouble for going up to 7/11
:D

Driver's Status!

Hey!
It's probably been a while since I last had an update on here.
My whole laptop situation is still pretty fucked up sadly enough
BUT...
I got my license!
Whoo
Thank god i passed this time
it is so liberating to know that i can drive by myself
I really do love my car too
the only thing i want to fix is my interior light
other then that i love the way it drives and handles:)
I am driving to and from school everyday now!
It is honestly great
i just can't wait until i turn 18 so that i can go anywhere
at any time!
now that will be awesome

College Life

Hey,
LONG time no talk.
I have been rather busy i guess you could say.
Since I didn't get my license I have been staying at my moms house during the week
and it actually hasn't been as dreadful as i thought it would be.
surprising i know..
We have been doing well together i guess i could say.
It's not hard to wake up and get ready in the morning.
I actually like it
but Tuesday i go for my road test
and i want nothing more then to get it this time:)
I did get called for work study, whoop!
I am very happy about that because it is a paycheck once a month
and will give me some work experience to put on my resume when i am applying for part time jobs
once i turn 18 of course
because now it is just too much of a damn hassle.
it's very annoying actually
what else?
oh i did dye my hair purple,
two streaks only but it faded out already sadly enough
although i am considering doing pink for October since it is breast cancer awareness month
oh and i did tell that guy i met on the Internet i couldn't talk to him anymore,
along with another friend i knew for quite some time..
I mean it was getting in the way of my current relationship
which i love and would very much love to keep
and it was me who was getting in the way of what needed to happen
to i stopped letting myself get in the way
and i think it really did help and make a difference.
He is all i need and i know that and love that
and i can honestly say that i am happy
:)

college orientation

so i went a few days ago
and you know what?
I liked it
i loved how corny they all were
and how people were really into it
it was cute.
some of the new students seemed a little...
off to me i guess you could say
but the people there were very nice
and welcoming
next wednesday i start
so i hope all goes well
i did have to order a new book
because my professor sent out an email
which i just checked yesterday
saying there was
a mix up..
ugh oh well

Home

I don't know...
why i feel this way.
I just hate being everywhere.
I hate everything
and it's horrible.
It's like yes i have this realization...
this epiphany if you will
that i know i cannot go on like this.
But I just can't help it.
My boyfriend is away for the weekend.
and i'm waiting for him to contact me..
but he just wont
is that effecting the way that i feel?
Maybe.
Or maybe it's something else that has always been there
but now in this awkward waiting time it's being revealed.
Is that possible?
It's like i want to run away from every corner of my life.
But where does that leave me?
While everyone i know if off starting the new chapter of their lives
i am sulking and
NO
i don't want to be this way...
and no i don't think it's depression
and i don't think it's jealousy.
I honestly don't know what it is
and i hate it.

college bound

so NO
i'm not going away to school
which makes me a little sad to be completely honest
BUT
i mean i don't really need that experience..
although it would be cool
all my friends are though.
going away to school
they all started leaving already
and by the end of the weekend they will all be gone
which is actually sad to think of
ehh...
i guess i'll miss them haha
i am however extremely happy to be out of high school
and looking forward to not having to return next month
although i will go to my little brothers orientation
it will be nice to see the faculty
and it will be a little different this time since i would be
"under their rule" so to speak
:D

Road Test

So...
I failed.
I know..Miss never fails anything, straight a student
ugh such a loser
i couldn't believe it..
but what can i say?
I guess i'll just have to try again.
:/

car and phone!

So today was really good for me!
I registered my car and got it on the road
:D so exciting!
I also got a visor organizer and put in the angel my mom gave me
My car is great!
It rides very smooth
and the idle really isn't bad at all once you start driving it
maybe it was sitting for a super long time and that's what made it so loud
but the steering wheel cover is great
my radio works well
and the cigarette charger thing works well too
:P
OH and i got a new phone today
i just upgraded my current phone to what the newer model was
and it's pretty nice i actually really like it
too bad they don't make it in white though:/
um but its the sony xperia the newest one
 
the only thing that super sucked
was that they couldn't transfer over my contacts so i had to type each one in by hand
but eh that's okay
umm i loved today it was great
my dog really enjoyed my car as well haha
she was so happy to be finally getting a ride:)

Shopping

So i went clothes shopping today with my boyfriend
we were at the mall
and it was just super weird because
i always thought that
only cool kids shopped at the mall
but today i walked in and just enjoyed myself
it was an odd feeling
but i'm happy i did it
:P
i got two circle skirts from h&m
which i have been searching for every time i go thrifting
which is alot by the way
so i saw them there and just decided to pick them up
finally

and i also got two pairs of pants and a top
which is so weird because i Never seem to find bottoms:)

Friends

So it has been so long since i have hung out with my friends
and so today i went over one of their houses and they were so fun
we got pizza and oreos
and watched a movie
and just laughed
and to me it was so great because i just feel like i fit there
somewhere
for once :)
and also it was nice to just hang out and relax with them
before they both go off to college upstate
and then i don't see them until break
:/
but anyways
it's nice to feel like you have somewhere to go
where people actually like you
and you make them smile
just as much as they make you smile

Eye shadow palettes

okay so i have been a lot more into make up within the last year or so
and since i had the money i treated myself to
the Naked Palette by urban decay
(as depicted here XD)

and so there is a second one that i do want to get because whenever I do my makeup i use this and i really love it! so this is the second one:

so they are so similar but not the same so i do want that to be my next palette i get
but i have also been looking at this one which i also really love and after the naked 2 i may get this one
the Lorac Pro Palette
and i really love this one because it has a whole row of matte shades
so we'll see what happens with that:P
and the other two things i really want to get are two individual eye shadows
which are:
Mac all that glitters

and Stila's kitten
as you can see i really love my neutrals haha
well anyways maybe for my birthday or christmas
:D

Online Buying

Okay so i am absolutely obsessed with....
LIP BALM
I buy pretty much every one i see and can get my hands on
I have all the nivea
all the baby lips
and all of the eos
so one new eos came out
a blueberry one
so i had some money on my debit card
and i didn't think they sold it in stores
and if they did it would be in a multipack
which i clearly do NOT need
SO
i decided to order it online
on the eos website
(here check it out!)
http://evolutionofsmooth.com/
anywayyyyyys
so i ordered this

because like i HAD to have it
plus i loved the blueberry one from the alice in wonderland collection
i also bought the new fresh watermelon one recently which came in the summer four pack

but there was also another watermelon one in the alice in wonderland collection it also came with a vanilla one, which i have in my pocket book now hahah
this is the collection i was talking about:

anyways so the whole point of this post is to say that
shopping online sucks
i got the confirmation email to say they shipped it out
with a tracking number
and when i put it in the usps thing
it said it was delivered in kentucky
on october 22nd 2012!
ugh damn you online shopping!

Car Accessories

So after I pass my road test my car will be ready to drive
and before i drive it i want to personalize it
and just get it all pretty
so there are a few things i want for my car:

1. Bumper Stickers

• I already bought one and i love it so much because it just really represents what I believe in:P 
• 
• and i also want to get this one because it pisses me off so much when people don't signal! >:[
• 

2. Steering wheel cover
        this is the one i think i want because it fits the theme of my car so far haha

3. Seat Covers
        I don't really need them because the seats in my car are in mint condition but i think i may want to get them just because they match perfectly and they are so cute!


3. inside bulb for the light it's broken

4. rosary beads and a guardian angel clip 

parallel parking

So yesterday i went out to practice,
my road test is the 12th
and i want to pass sooo badly!
and believe it or not i actually didn't suck at it :D


It's literally that simple haha
and it is a little scary because you think that you will side swipe the car,
but you don't
and i actually did fairly well
:)

Guys

Sometimes i wish that all guys were forced to keep diaries.
A log of all of their thoughts
just so that you can go and read them and understand
what in the world they were thinking
what was going through their mind as you were talking to them
men are so damn confusing i swear
and people say women are?
ugh i mean neither sex will ever will that argument
and i totally agree,
women are insane and complicated
but men are too
they under think things instead of over thinking them
they are oblivious to all around them
and sometimes they look at you with this blank stare like they don't comprehend a word you just said
which is so dumb because clearly they speak your language.
But that is the male sex for you...
never quite paying full attention
i mean there are those few men that are the exception
those that really do listen and pay attention,
but of course that type of man is extremely rare haha
i mean it's not like i'm saying men are horrible,
or else i'd be with a women
but men are just frustrating sometimes and i don't quite understand it.
Sometimes they just need to listen
and maybe they would finally get some insight into the opposite sex.

Summer So Far

So i am actually pretty happy with the way my summer is going as thus far
relaxation
north carolina
bought a car
no homework
and i have just been hanging out pretty much
kind of boring but i love just being able to go to the pool and beach and not having to worry about things being due soon for school
i do however have to practice some more for my road test so that i can pass on my date
august 12th
i mean i am a very good driver
i just need to practice everything and make sure i have everything down
especially parallel parking!
i also need to clean my room like soooo damn badly it is just so horrendous
i can't even look at it anymore i swear
i also need to work on some shirts
like cut them up and what not
i'll probably fringe my shirt from my 3 doors down and daughtry concert
oh yeah that was a good part of my summer too
concerts!
i went to an 80's freestyle one that one and maybe shinedown in september!
well anyways that is my update for now
:D

Automobiles:)

SO
today I decided to go to look at some cars
last night i was looking at a bunch on craigslist and my dad called some for me this morning
but then we decided to just go look around the neighborhood
and the first one i saw we didn't actually look at because there was no information
but we came back to it later and brought my uncles who are mechanics
and i am going to buy it tomorrow!
I am so excited:D
it is a either a 2000 or 2001 dodge neon
i have to check on the actual title for the year
it is tan
and  the head lights are so cute
:)
here is a picture
 
I am really happy^-^

Summer

So this is my first summer to basically do as I please
not worry about summer work or sending in reports every two weeks
this is the summer to relax at the pool and beach read a book
Of my own choosing
and just have fun!
Yet this is also the summer my dad and Beth conveniently have mersa
and my mom is complaining the pool is too cold
and Tim has school from 1-7 Monday through Thursday
ugh
I can never win even when I think I am i'm not!
And I am so sunburned as usual right on my cheeks of course
and I can't even cover it up with foundation
because it flakes up and is just so horrible,
oh well I guess I just have to deal with it then
:P

Freinds Parents

I don't know what it is but they are somehow so different from your own
whether it be in a good way or a bad one.
I mean sometimes I talk to my friends parents more then I talk to them..
which I admit is pretty sad and even kind of weird
and then there are those parents that you just don't understand
how in the world they were able to have a kid and raise them to be someone you would actually hang out with.
And then there are some that make you hate your parents
and then even some that make you happy you have yours and not them.
but then again that doesn't happen very often
and then there are those parents that pretend to be something they're not and when you friends come over they are star struck and your just sitting there like pleassssse
that is Never how they act!
That is my life in a nutshell honestly.
:/

Military...

I don't understand it
like At All
why someone would join.
I know people in the military and people joining and wanting to join
and i don't understand it.
I mean if you're happy with your life
and you aren't craving for a change of scenery and have no other way of leaving
then Why?
and guys that have girlfriends and are so happy with them
why are you leaving for god knows how long?
not understanding this logic
one bit.
UGH.

Graduation!!

So today I graduated High School...FINALLY!
It was so awesome to see everyone in one place
the year went by fast
but then it seems like a million years ago that we took the big senior picture
or i bought my senior sweater
or the first day of yearbook club!
I didn't cry, I didn't want to either,
because today wasn't sad,
it was awesome!!
<3


Me getting my diploma!


and then me leaving stage! whoop

Periods.

All I have to say is:
Screw You Mother Nature!
I have such an irregular period
sometimes i'll get it 5 months in a row
other times i'll skip for 3
or i'll have it for all of one day
or for 10.
But the one time i'm happy I haven't been getting it
and i'm not freaking out that I'm dying over some rare menstruation disease
I get it.
The day before graduation
when I have to wear all WHITE.
Ugh just my luck of course.
I mean i really should have seen it coming honestly...
but still!
>:(

riding around!

So i went to buy a bike for myself since it was finally on sale for $100 

but my dad decided to get it for me as an early graduation present 

and i am sooo happy 

because i've ridden about 10 miles or something with it so far 

i even went out by myself today early this morning which is so rare because i 

NEVER 

go anywhere myself! 

I am just so excited that i finally  have my own bike 

and that it's the style i've always wanted! 

Here it is! 

fucking forget it instagram wont let me:[

sad me

but anyways its so cute! 

:D

online

so people meet other people online
all the time.
and i always think it's so weird.
but i've met some of my friends on line as well.
on facebook,omegle ect.
and i do like the idea of really getting to know that person
and how they are BEFORE
you see what they look like
well on omegle anyway.
because then they can't just stop talking to you because your ugly
because they don't know
but then there's always that hesitation
of are they telling the truth?
because in a way,
you don't have to lie
there's no reason to.
because you will probably never meet them and how would they know
but then why not lie
because...
you'll probably never meet them and how would they know XD
it's a catch 22 really.
anyways
i love how people love me for who i am and what i say
but how can you truly feel like you know someone
let alone love them
when you've never met?
YOU CAN'T.
It's just that simple.
:/

T.V. Shows

SO i started watching a new show:
BONES
I love psych and grimm
but they're over and i need to watch something else
especially since i have off for the summer
i need something to watch!
I really like it!
ahhh crime shows, my favorite
anyways i just wanted to say that
XD

french macaroons

OMG!!
i've had these twice now, i love them!
i want to make them sooo bad
they are just so cute!
i don't even know why i like them so much
but i do know its the look of them that makes me love them!
they are so colorful and just so great!



just look how cute!!
I WILL make them!
<3 :D

summertime

SO
thursday was my last day of school!
My last day of high school,
my last day of senior year:)
damn it really did go by so fast!
I still have to go in monday to give a teacher something and work on my painting final
but it's over!
but today was my first day out in the summer and it was really fun
we walked all around sayville
which is a town near me and has so many cute(but super expensive) stores!
anyways.
i just wanted to say that!
bye :D

Mac Lipsticks

I know i've been gone for like....ever
and this is a weird topic to come back to.
BUT
anyone who knows me, Knows that i am obsessed with lip products
and i have been wanting to buy a mac lipstick for about a year.
AND i don't know which one!!
SO i've narrowed it down to three.
1. Plumful
it is a really pretty plum(obviously) pink berry color


2. Shy girl
which i've been looking at for like ever. I love nudes and this one seems great but i don't want to spend $15 on a lipstick that doesn't work for my skin tone and then i'm out of luck
it's like a peachy tan pink


3. Viva Glam V
now this one is a bit shimmery so i don't really know...um i do love it and it seems neutral enbough to wear all the time but what if its too shimmery or too sheer and it isn't really like a lipstick? ugh


i mean i love all three and i think any would be great ohhhh and there's one more i was looking at for like ever and thats a more pinky toned one

4. Cosmo
this is so similar to one i have and love and am almost out of from avon, but do i really want to play it safe by getting a color i know i'll love?


ugh sooooo which one should i buy now that i finally have the money??

UPDATE

Hey,
i know i've been gone for like,
ever.
I don't have a computer right now.
and thank god this year none of my teachers require anything to be typed.
Now that would SUCK.
My laptop is broken and i just haven't gotten it fixed.
And i need a keyboard to type not a touch one on a screen.
SOO
anyways
I got wait-listed for stony brook and declined my spot
I have accepted the fact that i am going to st. Joseph's
ummm
i am running my limo for prom.
And it is super stressful.
people keep on dropping out at the last moment and it's super expensive.
I hate everyone right now.
UGH.
My grandparents are just....
the way they are and my mom is too.
well that's about it really.
OHHHHH
and tomorrow is me and Tim's 5 year anniversary<3
finally!
okayyy bye!
:)

Spring Break

So this is it.
Today is the end.
UGH.
It went by so fast...
and what did i do all week?
Freak out over college, clean, homework...
nothing that great or exciting.
Well today is Easter and i am going to try and enjoy my last day of vacation,
even though I still have
Math extra credit
half of a book to read by Friday
a painting to work on
and cooking to do.
UGH.
Tomorrow is going to be good i hope.
Finally supposed to hear something from Stony Brook
and then maybe i can finally rest my mind.
I hope:)
Happy Easter everyone!

Stony Brook

I am still absolutely obessing over the decision.
I still haven't heard anything,
they say latest April 1st and today is March 28th...
I mean only a few more days right?
BUT
what if they never tell me anything??
I mean i am pretty sure just like everyone else that ill get in...
but why is it taking so long??
and why is it that i didn't get a rejection letter yet if i did get rejected?
ugh this is all too stressful for me!
and i have this workshop on april 5th at stony brook 'and i only signed up because i figured i could get another look at the campus i'd be going to
but for this thing i have to read a huge book i haven't started because i don't really want to go if i don't get in...
you know what i mean?
AND
april 7th is the admitted student thing for st. joseph's which i never even wanted to go there but i applied for the presidential scholarship
and ended up getting it.
UGHHHHH
too much stress over spring break.
this needs to stop.
now.

ugh hey there

it's been sooo long like over a month and a half i think.
i'm sorry I've been away for a while.
my laptop is messed up again and i'm just super stressed out!
I got  a presidential scholarship from St. Joseph's college and my counselors are pressuring me to take it
but i'm holding out for stony brook which is where i really want to go
but they won't let me know until the latest april first and i just feel like i've been waiting forever
and no word.
its killing me.
i just want to hear something! 
i don't feel like myself
i just feel so aggravated and irritated and on edge
once i find out i can make my decision.
but i haven't heard anything.
and i don't see why i wouldn't  get in but it's taking forever
and what if i don't.
i haven't really thought about that.
then i'll be going to St. Joseph's which i never even had on my list.
but the scholarship is awesome.
ugh i can't handle this stress.
everyone who applied regular admissions has found out already,
but not me of course.
the school i really want to go to hasn't said anything.
it's terrifying to me,
i really do want to go there.
i'm even looking forward to there 5 week boot camp over the summer.
just as long as i get in!
i'll definitely will keep you posted!
Bye
:/

High School

I don't really know what it is about those four years,
but for whatever reason everything seems to change.
People decide to "find themselves"
and become who they're meant to be or something.
I mean i guess i too went through that sort of thing but still...
and i just think like everyone feels that they are stuck in these molds or something they made for themselves at a younger age.
Like the dumb people can't be smart even if they actually are because that's be weird
and if you are a tom boy you can't come in the next day looking like a girl
or if you are a dork you can't all of a sudden act gangster or whatever...
I don't know
I just think it's sad in a way..
people are afraid to be who they want at a time when you're supposed to be experimenting and figuring out who you want to be.
Teenage years suck.

Relationship Issues...

So as you guys know I am with my boyfriend for almost 5 years now....
and i've recently (last two years or so) been having some doubts.
I don't know...I just feel unhappy.
our lives are uneventful.
He can't seem to hold a conversation without picking up one of his "toys"
(cell phone, hand held game ect.)
It's REALLY getting on my every last nerve.
The problem is I only seem to bring up this issue and whatever else that has been irking me when we get into a fight so i guess it seems as if i am just rattling off things that piss me off,
meanwhile i am legitimately bringing up something that annoys the shit out of me.
In a way i think i only want our relationship to work because of all the history we have...
and that is not worth anything.
I just feel neglected and forgotten about.
And he blames it on our living arrangements,
which i do agree is unconventional since we've been living together since i was in 8th grade.
But still....
He doesn't text me cute things anymore,
he doesn't call me when i'm at my moms house,
he doesn't write long messages in cards anymore...
I just feel like we have really lost something
and that something is what made our relationship worth wild.
It really saddens me,
i'm always mad at him
and he is always just so indifferent which makes me even more mad at him.
I just want to have a meaningful conversation,
a romantic evening....
something, you know?

Lazy Days

So the past few days have just been so lazy
I have just been laying around and doing whatever because i haven't been feeling too great.
But since I got my procedure I have been okay.
We ave watched so many movies
OMG seriously.
anyways right now we are putting on the three musketeers
I think I am going to watch despicable me again soon
I can't wait for the next one to come out.
Also I can't wait for the next spaghetti and meatballs movie to come out!
I have so much work to do for school and i haven't even sat down and looked at it yet which is so bad.
Oh well.
I had trouble sleeping last night, not because of pain though.
It was just the moon was so bright and I don't know just couldn't sleep.
So I am just sitting in the living room with everyone, not really into this movie, but whatever.
Ummmm well that's about it
:]

Surving

Hey,
Well I survived my surgery
It was relatively painless
the IV sucked and I started to freak out because she got blood on me.
I was asleep for the whole thing which was great.
I felt really light headed and sick to my stomach because of the anesthesia
but today I feel pretty good,
well my laptop is about to die sooo
bye
:D

Weather

Omg.
It has gotten so cold over the last couple of days.
Its in the teens right now.
And here i thought we weren't going to get a cold winter
HA!
And i was going to take a shower before my procedure today...
But my hair would turn to ice outside haha
So screw that idea
I just drank the last of my water.
No more after 10am so oh well
I just want to go in and get this over with
:]

Kidney Stone Update

Hey,
Well today was okay.
Tomorrow though...
I have my procedure.
I mean I'm not super nervous but in a way I guess I am.
I am more nervous about the IV...
I mean when I went to the emergency room they put one in and it wasn't too bad...
but i really don't want to have to do it again.
UGH.
But then again the sooner this is over with the better.
I am drinking a shit load of water so they can find my veins and all.
I am also nervous about taking out all of my jewelry
ugh I don't want my ears to close up.
I am more afraid of the smaller things then the actual procedure which is somewhat sad.
Oh well.
I know I'll be fine.
I'll be back to keep you updated on how it went.
:]

Pre-Op

Ugh.
Today I had blood work done.
For the first time ever!
It didn't hurt much but still...
and i just hate the doctors in general.
I also talked with the anestialogist (I know I can't spell)
I have my actual procedure thing on Thursday.
In a way I can't wait.
I also flipped out at my dad for once again being preoccupied.
Oh well.
We're about to watch X-Men 2 now
:D

My health

So i hate hate hate the doctor,
But i was having The worst pain in my back that i have ever had..
SO i decided i would go, and my little brother was sick too.
I thought i had a UTI
But my urine came back negative.
Then the doctor thought it could've been an ovarian cysts,
Which freaked me out so much...
I've never been to the gynecologist and i wasn't about to go
So i was kinda relieved to hear it was a kidney stone.
Although that's not too great either.
I have to change my whole diet and drink sooo much water.
But maybe ill be healthier.
Its 2mm which is not small but not huge.
Well yeah..that's my update.
:/